this weekend was supposed to be me working pretty much straight through. like i had a home ministries case lined up for tomorrow, all day today which was going to be a GREAT billing day, and tomorrow after church. i wasn't all that excited about it being all weekend, but at the same time it was good because i've been really needing the money. it seems there is this pattern happening of late that i take cases to fill in for, and for some reason or another, they get cancelled or switched or given to someone else!
finally, some solid days of working.
did a my smaller case yesterday. fine, good but was super long because traffic was worse than usual. today, the parents never confirmed for their visit so it was cancelled. sigh. good-bye good billing day. ok, well there is always tomorrow. i have to study for midterms next week anyway. today, setting up the visit for tomorrow, the parent cancelled his visit. sorry, will have to work something out with the regular worker.
what the heck!!! UGH. seriously?
really friends, this has become quite a pattern of late that i don't really know what to make of. are you trying to say something Lord? yeah, i do need this time to study. thank you. but Lord? just coincidence? i mean, i am trying to make things fit and work into my schedule, as varied as it is. maybe you have some ideas about this, what i am supposed to be doing...
yet i can't say he isn't providing. i am starting at ridgeview, the mental health facility next week. the training schedule = 40 hrs a week of work for the next 2-3 weeks. normally i will just have like 16 every week. this does mean extra money i won't normally get. and it means actually being paid like, every 2 weeks and not every 2 months. really, it is right on time as i see my bank account drain away.
friends, he IS the God of provision. i know he knows what is going on with me. i am not going to give up and stop taking cases with HM. i will still try. but really, after like a month of this happening, i am ready to hear a little something about this if there is something i am supposed to be seeing behind the circumstances. i am grateful for the provision he HAS given me. i have had so many things handed to me...school, a car, a place to live, and much more. i am so blessed and so fortunate. more than ever i am seeing this. i guess it is just time for a little more dependence on the Lord's provision than on the ease at which things have come in the past. and in the midst of that, be wise about my spending and saving, still giving with an open and generous heart...just being careful about what are needs and what are unnecessaries.
doesn't mean it isn't frustrating sometimes.
in other news, i had a great time visiting wes and terressa last weekend. got to meet little 2 month old eli jax and see how big mariah has gotten. it was a great time! these pics were from a wedding i went to with them :)
such a great mom! i hope i can look so good after 2 months after 2 kids :)
little jax was so cute in his wedding outfit :)
i have never seen a child gnaw on watermelon like this girl
the end!
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so i for some reason forgot that you kept this up since you got back. yay for finding it. :)
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